Journey with my Lord

So, last night I began my reading where I left off the night before: at Psalm 22. Honestly, I had planned on reading only a few of the chapters and then picking up the latest YWAM book I'm in the middle of. But for some reason, I was compelled to keep reading. I read through psalm after psalm--most of which had something to do with "waiting on the Lord" which is so a problem for me lately. I was wondering what exactly God was trying to teach me when reading all of these. When I got to psalm 40 I read:

"I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me and heard my cry.
He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,
And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.
He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God;
Many will see and fear
And will trust in the Lord.
How blessed is the man who has made the Lord his trust,
And has not turned to the proud, nor to those who lapse into falsehood.
Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders which You have done,
And your thoughts toward us;
There is none to compare with You.
If I would declare and speak of them,
They would be too numerous to count.
Sacrifice and meal offering You have not desired;
My ears You have opened;
Burnt offering and sin offering You have not required.
Then I said, "Behold I come;
In the scroll of the book it is written of me.
I delight to do Your will, O my God;
Your Law is within my heart."
I have proclaimed glad tidings of righteousness in the great congregation;
Behold, I will not restrain my lips,
O Lord, You know.
I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart;
I have spoken of Your faithfulness and Your salvation;
I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth from the great congregation.
You, O Lord, will not withhold Your compassion from me;
Your lovingkindness and Your truth will continually preserve me."

(Psalm 40:1-11)

What I realized through that is that I have been waiting on God to do SOMETHING, to show me my next step, to lead us somewhere and give us a purpose. I have been waiting on God to give me purpose. The only thing wrong with that is that I ALREADY know His purpose! He is a missionary God and I am to speak of His truth, His lovingkindness, His righteousness to all people, everywhere, no matter where I am. I am so concerned about the future and where God wants us to live and what exactly we'll do when we get there and how it will all work out that I am forgetting to just live for Him now. I am forgetting to just take JOY in the fact that the Lord is my God! He is my hope, my salvation, my everything! I am forgetting that while I waited on Him yesterday to tell me the next step for my future, TODAY is the future and I am missing it! Oh Lord, forgive me for waiting to delight in You. Forgive me for thinking I am serving you while I wait when I truly haven't been serving You daily. Help me to change my heart and my attitude towards waiting on you for our next stage of life. Thank you for Your Word which speaks volumes to me!!

The psalm I ended with last night as the need to continue reading subsided was the
41st one and it ends like this:
"Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel,
From everlasting to everlasting.
Amen and Amen."

And then I was able to put my Bible down, turn out my light and rest. This journey I am on sometimes seems long and tedious, but oh to have the Lord in control makes it worth it all!